Slightly annoyed....

I am slightly annoyed with people, i might just be having a bad day. scratch that bad last two months. GR! I'm tired of going to work wondering if today will be my last day... I'm tired of waiting behind stupid people with annoying children while they try to decide what to eat. get them something you know what they like unless you really are that out of touch with your children. I have a child to i don't let mine run around like a monkey on acid in public places! please really people grow some balls and tell your child NO for gods sake! I'm done. For now.

Atleast i still have my job....?

I know everyone is in a tight spot this year, and i assume its not going away anytime soon. i hate to be one of those people who complains but I'm going to be because this is my own personal spot to bitch. I lost hours this week, which means we get to come up 400 short every month. I would love to find a part time job but who is even hiring these days. i know my state hasn't even been hit by the worst of it yet but I'm terribly scared and horrified of what will happen when it does and when it gets worse if i will even have a job or if my husband even will. I'm only 22 we own two cars and a house filled with crap will i loose all that i have been working since i was 15 to get to this point? i don't want to loose everything but if it comes down to it i guess i will along with most other people. My only question is will we get out of this? I love Obama i voted for him i spent months and months on message boards defending the man and i know he cant make everything happen at once but i pray he gives us some hope once in office. I'm ready for change this is going to be a long road and its a big hole we all have to dig out of thank you president bush i would love nothing more then to give you a swift kick in the ass for all the heartack you have caused my family and millions of others. OK I'm done.

Do you ever get tired of being you?

I keep having this distinct feeling that, I'm not just tired of the same old. but I'm tired of being me... tired of living a non existent existence. if that even makes sense. So tired, i love my family my husband and son i just am not sure if i love myself. maybe i never have, what ever the reason is for that I'm not sure. maybe ill never figure it out because honestly i don't have the time to figure it out. or the patience mostly i don't have the time.

Why do we Blog?

I mean really why do we blog? Actually the better question is why do i blog? No one ever reads what i have to say. Maybe its the way i say it or maybe its the things i say. Who knows, I guess really it just comes down to me being able to say what i want when i want. I post alot of things on other web sites but i feel this space here is just for me. I just dont give myself alot of me time, which is apparent in my lack of posts on here. Thats what being a mommy is really about giving up youself for someone else. Marriage goes along with that, only you give up the things you want for the things they want instead. Im tired and rambling so im going to bed.

Twilight

It's Been a Little Crazy!

Well, lets see its been quit some time since i last posted. Ayden turned 1 started walking started talking alot more! I have changed jobs twice in the last year and finally feel like im somewhere good. Were buying our first house in 2 weeks from today and stressed about money. Other then that though its been pretty normal. HAHA! i wish i could update more but i cant right now so ill have to post again later!

Long time....

Well long time no post? Yeah it pretty well figures since I'm a lazy ass. So sorry... actually im not so much sorry.

Anyways Ayden is 9 months working on the 10th month and being the bad mommy i am i feed him regular food because he HATES baby food and i dont blame him. I of course dont give him everything, i know there are somethings you just dont give a baby. I'm not that horrible of a parent.

If i had waited for my doctor to buck up and tell me what to do (which i kind of waited for since im a first time mom and all) My baby would still be having only formula the dumb ass cant even tell me at his last check up when to introduce regular milk and tells me i really should feed him baby food because it has nutrients that our food doesn't have (what the fuck?) your kidding right? Id like to see him try and feed ayden that shit im sure he would give up after the first screaming and smashing around he does in his high chair and oh god the mess... So yes i feed him chicken nuggets with me it actually is helping me out i get a kids meal and share it he dosnt even eat a whole nugget but hey it works.

I find myself coming home wanting to be all domestic but cant quit bring myself to do so, i will however make ayden quick string beans or peas or something, I have get this people! IT ME WERE TALKING ABOUT HERE i Made a full course dinner! aahhhh! gasp not once but 3 times in one week that went unnoticed though which further more has given me no motivation to continue back to mcdonalds we go.....

Oh and my boobs hurt.... no im not pregnant that requires sex which i get non of maybe i have breast cancer haha actually not so funny now that i think about it.... alright ill bore you later with more tales of my hell of a life!