Today Or Tomorrow.

So I have yet to decide what i am going to do, without a job and not many options i feel slightly stuck. Also waiting for new on them extending unemployment or not is stressful to say the least the deadline is Sunday and I'm hoping for news but its Thursday and we all know how the government does things.

On another note, My mother and her family went down to see my grandparents in Vegas today for the weekend. Its my grandmothers birthday on Sunday and i refused to go, my mother of course got all butt hurt saying i needed to get out of my funk. Right now my funk has nothing to do with my ending marriage and all to do with not having money or prospects for a job. Also traveling with a 3 year old for 5 hours in a car with an annoying 11 year old step brother then having to spend days with him is not my idea of a relaxing get away. I would love to see my grandparents but the thought of spending it with my nagging mother is another thing.

I talked to my grandma and she just told me they loved me and hoped i got feeling better and things would get better that i would make it out of this. My mom seems to push me like i need to do it now... you heal at your own time and dealing with her on top of what I'm dealing with is not helpful and never has been.

Anyways...I guess that's it.

I am not religious but i like this : “God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”