Saturday, January 14, 2012

Remember me?

Do you remember me? Because i don't. I cant recall the person i aspired to be the person i thought id be. The person who was going to do something anything with her life.

DO i regret it? It would be a total lie to say no. But not really is acceptable, i don't feel stronger or braver or anything more than i was but im happy knowing i made such a beautiful boy. I have a good job (with the exception of a good boss)i may not have everything i want or need but i have enough and ayden has more than enough.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Worry Wart

I worry and stress and obsess over everything no matter how many times you tell me its ok and how many times i ask the question and get a straight or not so straight answer like let it go answer i don't. To the point im sick and tired and cant sleep and cant eat and cant breath.

I need a Xanax i don't have and i want this whole bankruptcy losing house thing to be over with already but at the same time i don't want to rush it if we cant stay in the house longer for free and i don't want to do anything in the mean time to srew up the bankruptcy.

Someone make it stop.