Friday, December 12, 2008

Atleast i still have my job....?

I know everyone is in a tight spot this year, and i assume its not going away anytime soon. i hate to be one of those people who complains but I'm going to be because this is my own personal spot to bitch. I lost hours this week, which means we get to come up 400 short every month. I would love to find a part time job but who is even hiring these days. i know my state hasn't even been hit by the worst of it yet but I'm terribly scared and horrified of what will happen when it does and when it gets worse if i will even have a job or if my husband even will. I'm only 22 we own two cars and a house filled with crap will i loose all that i have been working since i was 15 to get to this point? i don't want to loose everything but if it comes down to it i guess i will along with most other people. My only question is will we get out of this? I love Obama i voted for him i spent months and months on message boards defending the man and i know he cant make everything happen at once but i pray he gives us some hope once in office. I'm ready for change this is going to be a long road and its a big hole we all have to dig out of thank you president bush i would love nothing more then to give you a swift kick in the ass for all the heartack you have caused my family and millions of others. OK I'm done.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Do you ever get tired of being you?

I keep having this distinct feeling that, I'm not just tired of the same old. but I'm tired of being me... tired of living a non existent existence. if that even makes sense. So tired, i love my family my husband and son i just am not sure if i love myself. maybe i never have, what ever the reason is for that I'm not sure. maybe ill never figure it out because honestly i don't have the time to figure it out. or the patience mostly i don't have the time.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Why do we Blog?

I mean really why do we blog? Actually the better question is why do i blog? No one ever reads what i have to say. Maybe its the way i say it or maybe its the things i say. Who knows, I guess really it just comes down to me being able to say what i want when i want. I post alot of things on other web sites but i feel this space here is just for me. I just dont give myself alot of me time, which is apparent in my lack of posts on here. Thats what being a mommy is really about giving up youself for someone else. Marriage goes along with that, only you give up the things you want for the things they want instead. Im tired and rambling so im going to bed.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Twilight

Monday, March 10, 2008

It's Been a Little Crazy!

Well, lets see its been quit some time since i last posted. Ayden turned 1 started walking started talking alot more! I have changed jobs twice in the last year and finally feel like im somewhere good. Were buying our first house in 2 weeks from today and stressed about money. Other then that though its been pretty normal. HAHA! i wish i could update more but i cant right now so ill have to post again later!