Do you?

Do you ever feel like you are totally screwing everything up?! I feel like that right now, its probably me being paranoid. Ok not probably it is! I know we are all broken i get that i really really do i just feel like i don't have enough to offer. That even if i try i will never be good enough...does that make sense?

Im not sad today..im just over thinking everything. Habit. I know! grr...

I just want a new job and the drama with ali to be over and i want her to be ok. I feel guilty that shes not ok and i am. Like i should be paying some ultimate price for being so happy.

Sorry so short

-Amanda