Not Normal

Doesn't everyone want normal? But what is normal? Stupid question because everyone asks it stupidly common. Ugh life Has a way of kicking you in the balls when your down and foaming at the mouth, metaphorically speaking that is. I am so tired of being stressed and worried and heart broken and FAT and annoyed and tired and utterly indifferent that i could scream. Probably wouldn't help I'm like that fat kid in the back of the class that gets no attention and continue to feed my face. I know I'm stupid and not making any sense but like i give a shit. Everyone says oh I'm ready for change fuck change i want normal i want to get up and be happy and go to bed and be happy and somewhere in the middle feel loved...is that really so much to ask for? apparently.