Friday, March 6, 2009
I never pictured myself here, where i am at right now. NEVER i never wanted to be her the girl who had a baby with her high school sweet heart her only REAL boyfriend, got married and bought a house. I had goals dreams and ambitions like everyone else but being a responsible person seemed to be what took over. I am proud of myself even if no one else is, I'm proud of the women and mother i am, i was stupid and i continue to make stupid decision buts whats done is done and i cant undo it and i never would. i wish i could have been more for my son i never wanted to be this girl but i am and I'm doing the best with it i know how. i wish i had more in me had taken a different path to him so i could have given him more as a mother. a mothers regret i suppose
Posted by Amanda at 10:04 PM
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Yes i posted twice within minutes shut up no one reads you anyways! i have decided i am about the worst writer in the world yet i insist on continuing my futile attempts. big words i know but i like them. anyways i write because my brain will NEVER shut up if don't i get these weird ideas and i write. i write about stupid stuff, and i enjoy it only i tend to get bored about oh 15 pages in and that's where it usually ends. humph... i give up i have nothing of substance to say and i am rambling for the pure joy of seeing my own words typed bah!
Posted by Amanda at 7:45 PM
Really is there any truth to anything anyone says? does that make sense? probably not. sometimes i evny those around me until i find out the sad truth that is their lives. that sad truth that they are no more happy then me no more sucessful no more regretful. Envy is a hateful and painful thing. sigh.
Posted by Amanda at 7:07 PM